I Will Be

I Will Be

There’s nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain the tears they cry
Still you never said goodbye and now I know how far you’d go
I know I let you down but it's not like that now
This time I’ll never let you go

I will be all that you want and get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything OK

I thought that I had everything I didn’t know what life could bring
But now I see honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe 'cause you're here with me
And if I let you down I’ll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go

I will be all that you want and get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing OK

Cause with out you I can’t sleep
I’m not gonna ever ever let you leave
You’re all I got
You’re all I want
Yeah
And without you I don’t know what I’ll do
I could never ever live a day without you
Here with me do you see you're all I need

And I will be all that you want and get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life (my life) I will be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything OK

I will be (I’ll be) all that you want and get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life you know I will be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything OK

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Was in the car this evening when I heard this song over the radio, and something about it just doesn't seem right.
Found out that it was sang by Leona Lewis, which kinda fxcked up the song IMO cuz when I 1st heard this being sang by Avril, it was a fantastically lovely song!!

Later found out that the Avril version was the unreleased song that she wrote but never went into the "Girlfriend" album..
Sad thing cuz it is such a lovely song.
In the end Leona somehow got her hands on the song and was released in her album, which she bloody messed up the song wtf

Duly went home and repeated the song (the original by Avril of coz) I have in my computer for the rest of the night...

PM me if u wan dis song I'll happily share ^^

I wanna watch movies~~~

Swt.

Just finished watching the Oscars, and now I so bloody wanna watch a shitload of movies.


Curious case of Benjamin Button

Slumdog Millionaire

Changelings

Frost/Nixon

Milk

The Reader

The Wrestler

Doubt

Defiance

Valkyrie

....


Woot!! Need to catch Slumdog/Benjamin/Changlings/Valkyrie before they stop showing on the big screen!!!

Which is probably by next week... wtf

and... Frost/Nixon and Milk would probably not be available for showing in our lovely tanah air due to our country's "openness" on religion/history/political views..
which is so totally KNS
hope that it'll show in the cinema in due time, or I'll have to result to supporting the pirated DVD peddlers once more zzz

Movies Movies Movies~~~

I need some company~~~ and I need money wtf -_-"

Let's go watch some nice shows~~~



and pls no more chickflick/dumbass comedy/anything relating to hong kong comedy pls I dun want to fucking waste my time and money on these anymore I had enough of it for 2009 zzz

Lurking Love is waiting to be found

It may be lurking around the corner,
or may be under you bed,
or inside your closet;
It may be lurking few thousand miles away from you,
or it may be just beneath your nose,
right in front of you,
behind you,
lurking...

Everybody may have that unfulfilled love, lurking somewhere waiting to be found,
it may be the girl you never had the courage to tell her that you love her,
or the guy that you've just quarreled with a few moments ago,
or the gal that you've been chasing all these while,
or the guy that you thought were just good friends but deep down inside he loves you oh so dearly.
Love is everywhere, but they are hidden, they lurk and they want to be found.

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It may sound ridiculous, but I've only been through 3 Valentine's Day together with a partner...

Twice was with my dear, the 2nd time is this very day (14/2/2009), while the other was with PrincessP.

Such a coincidence that so many years with her, we so very seldom crossed each other's life during Valentine's Day, and I wonder why... >"<

Well this year it's different and I'm indeed celebrating my Valentine with my love, although in an unorthodox way in the sense that we're thousands of miles apart.
Still, it feels different compared with while being single, and in a better way too ^^

Juz wanna wish everyone a happy Valentine's Day~~~
and I love you dear... ^^

Turning Point vs Point of No Return

I hate you. I love you.

I'm glad that you had to go. I'm sad that you must leave.

I hope you never come back. I wish you never have to go.

Please leave me alone. Please don't leave me.

It's good that you won't be around. I'm scared that I won't see you again.

Life without you would be so much better. I cannot possibly live without you

I can start a new life. I wanna die.

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Of every statement, one side of it is true while the other is not.

Right now, I cannot differentiate which is which.

How I wish all of the red is true, but it's the white that is hard to let go.

This, could be my Turning Point.

Or it could be my Point of No Return.

emo-ed

1st post of 2009

Been busy lately.

Been doing lots of stuffs lately.

Been going places lately.

Been hurting myself lately.

Been playing lots of Dota lately.

Been exercising less lately.

Been playing less mahjong lately.

Been confused/uncertain/complicated lately.

Been naughty lately.

Been happy lately.

Festive seasons... Christmas, New Year and now the oncoming CNY..
I kinda like it and hate it at the same time, because it brings stuffs for me to do like going out having fun, but sometimes when life gets too busy you'll end up wanting to stay at home and relax, away from all the hectic chaos...

well that's the problem of being a slight sadist, wanting everything of both sides when actually everything of both can't really fit into my itsy bitsy life..
itsy bitsy in the sense of being confined by financial constraints and limited by my physical conditions.
Oh and not forgetting emotional frailty.

Time passes by so fast when everything goes according to plan, not that I have a plan but I do have a hectic life involving plans made by others and people to catch up with, hence it has been quite awhile where my life (not including the rest time that I need to fix my health) is filled with doing all sorts of things...
Bumped into lots of friends that I haven't seen for a long long time, in b'day parties, countdown gathers, even on shopping outings ^^
And I've seen almost every available movie on show this festive period, and it's been a long time since I last gone on a movie spree watching on average 2~3 movie per week for 3 consecutive weeks..

so yeah times flies and sometimes I wondered what have I done so far, what hasn't been done, and what should I do next?
I hope after this hectic period I can settle down abit and get to grips on some issues going on in my life. Find some answers. Apologize to some people. Pursue some goals. And find some solutions.

Been at home for the last 3 days due to being slightly immobilized no thanks my injured toe...

toe in its sorry state =..=

Has been quite a good start to the year apart from this, am actually looking forward to the rest of 2009 XD

cheers~

"Sick" Zombie Slayer

Call of Duty: World at War - NAZI ZOMBIE GAMEPLAY - Awesome video clips here

this is Call of Duty - Nazi Zombie.
a mini game from the WWII first person shooter, where a group of 4 people can play together and defend against invading Nazi zombies into their shelter.

well, 2day I spent 3 hours playing this game in a cyber cafe with my buddies, and it was fun actually, extremely exhilarating especially when we get to the later stages when the zombies come in big fuggin waves, they get stronger and faster, and we were like screaming "get the fxxk away from me ccb niasing XXXXXXXXXXX WAAAAAAAAAAAAA" *dead*

yeah, when u hear these cursing it normally ends up in someone dying in the game.
fuggin fantastic XD

u guys should try it when u have the chance, one of the most exciting FPS in recent times.

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On a more serious note, I almost vomited after the gaming session ended.
I have this problem where after playing First Person Shooter (FPS) games I will end up freaking nauseated.
like fuggin wanting to puke.
especially FPS with dark surroundings, small/covered environment, and fast actions aka flinging the mouse everywhere to shoot the fuggin buggers.
and Nazi zombie is exactly those of what I mentioned, but multiplied by at least 2.

so apart from dying in game, I felt like half dead when I finished playing it.

no more zombie slaying for me in the foreseeable future, it's a health hazard for me 凸 =..="

When? Why? How? I Don't know~~~

噢~~~

又平平淡淡地过了今年的7/12了~~~

好~~~无~~~聊~~~

7/12又是什么日子呢???

应该..只有几个人知道这一天对我有什么意义吧...

不知道的那些人呢? 想知道吗???

噢~~~~

都~~~过~~~了~~~

算~~~了~~~罢~~~~~

呜呜呜~~~


LOLX~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


btw，最近好多人庆祝anniversary喔...

有的去烛光晚餐

有的打算去马六甲玩

有的结果因为经济不景气而上了云顶

有的比较有米的又跑到了金马伦玩

感觉好幸福喔~~~

我也想过纪念日~~~

买多多的花，巧克力送她，带她到处逛游~~

拖着她的小手~~ 给她温柔的亲吻拥抱~~~

好想要有二人世界的幸福感觉哦~~~

呜~~~~

LOLX x 100~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


21岁了，其实身边多了很多感情方面稳定下来了的情侣...
一起共度了一周年，两周年，甚至更多的都会有..
当然也有那些结了婚的另当别论啦，搞大人家或什么的都不是普通人想要发生的 @@"
但其实发现现在身边的朋友要就是已多年老夫老妻的情侣，要不然就是死命单身的那些可怜家伙，而我就很可惜的被入围后面的那可怜组 T_T~

说要找女朋友，就不知道为什么酱难...

从哪开始找起?

从现有的朋友圈?

从不认识的人那儿开始找起?

从前任女友那儿找回以前的感觉?

现有的朋友圈里，若要找个伴侣，意思就是会少一个朋友。
这方面的起点就是要确认哪些朋友有机率或比较有可能性成为伴侣。
若表白不成功，通常就等于会少个朋友了...
成功的话就有女友了，但若过后进展受挫而分开的话，往往也就酱不只没了情人，也浪费了之前向本为朋友的她表白所冒的险，一样地失去了个很要好的朋友...

若说要从不认识的人哪找女友，别说要认识女友啦，就连要认识新朋友都难... ="=
我现在的环境和现况，说实在不利于认识新朋友呢...

前任女友?
这其实就是最容易的方式了。
最熟悉的感觉往往就是最舒服的了，所以ex的appeal就在于它的熟悉感...
分了酱多年还可以谈天时还很自然地dear来darling去..
说的话题不论从八卦到时事到性爱到空谈都可以讲得自由的感觉..
清楚她喜欢些什么，讨厌些什么..
知道她喜欢你的什么，讨厌你的什么..
而自己也清楚喜欢她的什么，不喜欢她的什么...
对于她的了解，就会变成想回追她的推动力。

但这所有所有的了解之中，往往最明刻骨铭心最记得的最清楚的，
就是当时是为了些什么而分开...
而这记忆，就会成了想回追念头的最大阻碍。

噢~~~~~

懊恼~~~~~


wow，好像做assignment酱写了个分析自己"找女友"的analysis...
tmd i need to get a break from my assignments X.X

虽然...我单身了几久一下，但也其实谈过很多年的恋爱啦...
多多少少都至少有7，8年了吧..
在这么多年里对象不多，只围绕在2，3人之间...
奇怪的是...我还没正式度过过哪个周年呢!!!
not even an 1 year anniversary!!!
要怪就怪我所有过的爱情都挨不过一年吧...

失~~~~~~~败~~~~~~~~

伤~~~~~~~心~~~~~~~~

哇哇哇~~~






stupid post XD... happy public holidays everyone~~~