Nightmare

Finally,

My nightmare of a semester has ended.

today I've just finished my last final exam subject, and will gladly put this horrible semester of mine behind me.

I have no idea how

I could have screwed this semester up

I think this is probably the worst semester I've had in the three years of my time in HELP

probably due to the fact that somehow

I wasn't in the mood to study at all.

That after so long til the sem has started, passed by, and finished in front of me but me still having the holiday hangover from my PREVIOUS sem break.

why?

why.

I felt that I had no motivation whatsoever

which is something that has been getting on me for the pass few semester

motivation is decreasing at a steady rate with each passing semester

hence is that's probably why my grades are at a similar downward slope?

dunno.

no motivation

due to what?

due to having no target to achieve

due to being single and having no moral support

due to being sick

due to having too many excuses?

maybe a bit of everything.

I cannot deny the fact that the things I've mentioned is indeed having a negative effect in my life

I want to change those situations

But change takes time

and time is not on my side.

On Saturday my aunt chatted with my mom, suggesting that I should travel to UK next year when my degree finishes to get my masters. My cousin bro is going during that time so they agree it would be a great time to tag along.

In my mind,

I don't mind going, if it does not burden my family financially, and I would certainly like the exposure.

But,

I held my stand that if my sickness haven't healed, I will not be going, or else I know I'll suffer.

Time is running out.

Time is running out.

Time is running out.

...

Nightmare of a semester has ended

I do not have high hopes for my grades this sem

A pass for every sub would be good enough

If not then I wouldn't complain as I know I deserved it.

Bad bad nightmare...


Hope I wake up to a better dawn.

Anonymous III

"I would rather pass up late a fully completed/100% satisfied assignment, than to pass up on time a half-heartedly done/rush job assignment,"
quote Bryan Chong.

That, my friend, is the excuse I give to myself when I pass up my assignment late, and it does make sense, doesn't it?

well lately I've passed up 3 assignments 1 day late, the most recent one being today.
I know it's bad, and I know the consequences of maybe deducted marks. (this depends on lecturers you see, some won't mind if it's juz 1 day late, while some will even if u're 1 hour late)
And hell yeah, I do know that I'm lazy... XD
But in my opinion, why pass up a half-done, rushed job assignment that will get around 60 marks on time, when I can pass up a decently done assignment worth at least 70 marks 1 day late?

how it works in my college HELP:
late pass up penalty: 10% deducted from the actual mark given each day.
so it's like if u get 80% but pass up late by 1 day, it's 80%-8%=72%, or late by 2 days it's 80%-16% blah blah blah..
so...

the math goes like this: (assuming marks will be deducted)
pass up bad assignment on time = 60% over 100%
pass up good assignment late by 1 day = 70% - 70/100 = 63% over 100%

see? get my point?


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I admit.. that it's still an excuse for doing something bad... LOL
1 more assignment due on the 12th!!! please don't give me the chance to use this excuse again, however much sense it makes.. T_T~
somebody plz save miiii from becoming who i don't want to be~~~ lalala XD