Turning Point vs Point of No Return

I hate you. I love you.

I'm glad that you had to go. I'm sad that you must leave.

I hope you never come back. I wish you never have to go.

Please leave me alone. Please don't leave me.

It's good that you won't be around. I'm scared that I won't see you again.

Life without you would be so much better. I cannot possibly live without you

I can start a new life. I wanna die.

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Of every statement, one side of it is true while the other is not.

Right now, I cannot differentiate which is which.

How I wish all of the red is true, but it's the white that is hard to let go.

This, could be my Turning Point.

Or it could be my Point of No Return.

emo-ed

1st post of 2009

Been busy lately.

Been doing lots of stuffs lately.

Been going places lately.

Been hurting myself lately.

Been playing lots of Dota lately.

Been exercising less lately.

Been playing less mahjong lately.

Been confused/uncertain/complicated lately.

Been naughty lately.

Been happy lately.

Festive seasons... Christmas, New Year and now the oncoming CNY..
I kinda like it and hate it at the same time, because it brings stuffs for me to do like going out having fun, but sometimes when life gets too busy you'll end up wanting to stay at home and relax, away from all the hectic chaos...

well that's the problem of being a slight sadist, wanting everything of both sides when actually everything of both can't really fit into my itsy bitsy life..
itsy bitsy in the sense of being confined by financial constraints and limited by my physical conditions.
Oh and not forgetting emotional frailty.

Time passes by so fast when everything goes according to plan, not that I have a plan but I do have a hectic life involving plans made by others and people to catch up with, hence it has been quite awhile where my life (not including the rest time that I need to fix my health) is filled with doing all sorts of things...
Bumped into lots of friends that I haven't seen for a long long time, in b'day parties, countdown gathers, even on shopping outings ^^
And I've seen almost every available movie on show this festive period, and it's been a long time since I last gone on a movie spree watching on average 2~3 movie per week for 3 consecutive weeks..

so yeah times flies and sometimes I wondered what have I done so far, what hasn't been done, and what should I do next?
I hope after this hectic period I can settle down abit and get to grips on some issues going on in my life. Find some answers. Apologize to some people. Pursue some goals. And find some solutions.

Been at home for the last 3 days due to being slightly immobilized no thanks my injured toe...

toe in its sorry state =..=

Has been quite a good start to the year apart from this, am actually looking forward to the rest of 2009 XD

cheers~