1st post of 2009

Been busy lately.

Been doing lots of stuffs lately.

Been going places lately.

Been hurting myself lately.

Been playing lots of Dota lately.

Been exercising less lately.

Been playing less mahjong lately.

Been confused/uncertain/complicated lately.

Been naughty lately.

Been happy lately.

Festive seasons... Christmas, New Year and now the oncoming CNY..
I kinda like it and hate it at the same time, because it brings stuffs for me to do like going out having fun, but sometimes when life gets too busy you'll end up wanting to stay at home and relax, away from all the hectic chaos...

well that's the problem of being a slight sadist, wanting everything of both sides when actually everything of both can't really fit into my itsy bitsy life..
itsy bitsy in the sense of being confined by financial constraints and limited by my physical conditions.
Oh and not forgetting emotional frailty.

Time passes by so fast when everything goes according to plan, not that I have a plan but I do have a hectic life involving plans made by others and people to catch up with, hence it has been quite awhile where my life (not including the rest time that I need to fix my health) is filled with doing all sorts of things...
Bumped into lots of friends that I haven't seen for a long long time, in b'day parties, countdown gathers, even on shopping outings ^^
And I've seen almost every available movie on show this festive period, and it's been a long time since I last gone on a movie spree watching on average 2~3 movie per week for 3 consecutive weeks..

so yeah times flies and sometimes I wondered what have I done so far, what hasn't been done, and what should I do next?
I hope after this hectic period I can settle down abit and get to grips on some issues going on in my life. Find some answers. Apologize to some people. Pursue some goals. And find some solutions.

Been at home for the last 3 days due to being slightly immobilized no thanks my injured toe...

toe in its sorry state =..=

Has been quite a good start to the year apart from this, am actually looking forward to the rest of 2009 XD

cheers~

"Sick" Zombie Slayer

Call of Duty: World at War - NAZI ZOMBIE GAMEPLAY - Awesome video clips here

this is Call of Duty - Nazi Zombie.
a mini game from the WWII first person shooter, where a group of 4 people can play together and defend against invading Nazi zombies into their shelter.

well, 2day I spent 3 hours playing this game in a cyber cafe with my buddies, and it was fun actually, extremely exhilarating especially when we get to the later stages when the zombies come in big fuggin waves, they get stronger and faster, and we were like screaming "get the fxxk away from me ccb niasing XXXXXXXXXXX WAAAAAAAAAAAAA" *dead*

yeah, when u hear these cursing it normally ends up in someone dying in the game.
fuggin fantastic XD

u guys should try it when u have the chance, one of the most exciting FPS in recent times.

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On a more serious note, I almost vomited after the gaming session ended.
I have this problem where after playing First Person Shooter (FPS) games I will end up freaking nauseated.
like fuggin wanting to puke.
especially FPS with dark surroundings, small/covered environment, and fast actions aka flinging the mouse everywhere to shoot the fuggin buggers.
and Nazi zombie is exactly those of what I mentioned, but multiplied by at least 2.

so apart from dying in game, I felt like half dead when I finished playing it.

no more zombie slaying for me in the foreseeable future, it's a health hazard for me 凸 =..="

When? Why? How? I Don't know~~~

噢~~~

又平平淡淡地过了今年的7/12了~~~

好~~~无~~~聊~~~

7/12又是什么日子呢???

应该..只有几个人知道这一天对我有什么意义吧...

不知道的那些人呢? 想知道吗???

噢~~~~

都~~~过~~~了~~~

算~~~了~~~罢~~~~~

呜呜呜~~~


LOLX~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


btw，最近好多人庆祝anniversary喔...

有的去烛光晚餐

有的打算去马六甲玩

有的结果因为经济不景气而上了云顶

有的比较有米的又跑到了金马伦玩

感觉好幸福喔~~~

我也想过纪念日~~~

买多多的花，巧克力送她，带她到处逛游~~

拖着她的小手~~ 给她温柔的亲吻拥抱~~~

好想要有二人世界的幸福感觉哦~~~

呜~~~~

LOLX x 100~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


21岁了，其实身边多了很多感情方面稳定下来了的情侣...
一起共度了一周年，两周年，甚至更多的都会有..
当然也有那些结了婚的另当别论啦，搞大人家或什么的都不是普通人想要发生的 @@"
但其实发现现在身边的朋友要就是已多年老夫老妻的情侣，要不然就是死命单身的那些可怜家伙，而我就很可惜的被入围后面的那可怜组 T_T~

说要找女朋友，就不知道为什么酱难...

从哪开始找起?

从现有的朋友圈?

从不认识的人那儿开始找起?

从前任女友那儿找回以前的感觉?

现有的朋友圈里，若要找个伴侣，意思就是会少一个朋友。
这方面的起点就是要确认哪些朋友有机率或比较有可能性成为伴侣。
若表白不成功，通常就等于会少个朋友了...
成功的话就有女友了，但若过后进展受挫而分开的话，往往也就酱不只没了情人，也浪费了之前向本为朋友的她表白所冒的险，一样地失去了个很要好的朋友...

若说要从不认识的人哪找女友，别说要认识女友啦，就连要认识新朋友都难... ="=
我现在的环境和现况，说实在不利于认识新朋友呢...

前任女友?
这其实就是最容易的方式了。
最熟悉的感觉往往就是最舒服的了，所以ex的appeal就在于它的熟悉感...
分了酱多年还可以谈天时还很自然地dear来darling去..
说的话题不论从八卦到时事到性爱到空谈都可以讲得自由的感觉..
清楚她喜欢些什么，讨厌些什么..
知道她喜欢你的什么，讨厌你的什么..
而自己也清楚喜欢她的什么，不喜欢她的什么...
对于她的了解，就会变成想回追她的推动力。

但这所有所有的了解之中，往往最明刻骨铭心最记得的最清楚的，
就是当时是为了些什么而分开...
而这记忆，就会成了想回追念头的最大阻碍。

噢~~~~~

懊恼~~~~~


wow，好像做assignment酱写了个分析自己"找女友"的analysis...
tmd i need to get a break from my assignments X.X

虽然...我单身了几久一下，但也其实谈过很多年的恋爱啦...
多多少少都至少有7，8年了吧..
在这么多年里对象不多，只围绕在2，3人之间...
奇怪的是...我还没正式度过过哪个周年呢!!!
not even an 1 year anniversary!!!
要怪就怪我所有过的爱情都挨不过一年吧...

失~~~~~~~败~~~~~~~~

伤~~~~~~~心~~~~~~~~

哇哇哇~~~






stupid post XD... happy public holidays everyone~~~

Anonymous IV

Things hasn't change a bit.

not a bit at all.

Then why am I yearning for the past?

Why am I so afraid to commit to the future?

Why am I scared to make the next move?

The move that I'm not even sure which would lead me to something good?

Confused, but at the same time excited.

This is certainly a first.

Nightmare

Finally,

My nightmare of a semester has ended.

today I've just finished my last final exam subject, and will gladly put this horrible semester of mine behind me.

I have no idea how

I could have screwed this semester up

I think this is probably the worst semester I've had in the three years of my time in HELP

probably due to the fact that somehow

I wasn't in the mood to study at all.

That after so long til the sem has started, passed by, and finished in front of me but me still having the holiday hangover from my PREVIOUS sem break.

why?

why.

I felt that I had no motivation whatsoever

which is something that has been getting on me for the pass few semester

motivation is decreasing at a steady rate with each passing semester

hence is that's probably why my grades are at a similar downward slope?

dunno.

no motivation

due to what?

due to having no target to achieve

due to being single and having no moral support

due to being sick

due to having too many excuses?

maybe a bit of everything.

I cannot deny the fact that the things I've mentioned is indeed having a negative effect in my life

I want to change those situations

But change takes time

and time is not on my side.

On Saturday my aunt chatted with my mom, suggesting that I should travel to UK next year when my degree finishes to get my masters. My cousin bro is going during that time so they agree it would be a great time to tag along.

In my mind,

I don't mind going, if it does not burden my family financially, and I would certainly like the exposure.

But,

I held my stand that if my sickness haven't healed, I will not be going, or else I know I'll suffer.

Time is running out.

Time is running out.

Time is running out.

...

Nightmare of a semester has ended

I do not have high hopes for my grades this sem

A pass for every sub would be good enough

If not then I wouldn't complain as I know I deserved it.

Bad bad nightmare...


Hope I wake up to a better dawn.

Anonymous III

"I would rather pass up late a fully completed/100% satisfied assignment, than to pass up on time a half-heartedly done/rush job assignment,"
quote Bryan Chong.

That, my friend, is the excuse I give to myself when I pass up my assignment late, and it does make sense, doesn't it?

well lately I've passed up 3 assignments 1 day late, the most recent one being today.
I know it's bad, and I know the consequences of maybe deducted marks. (this depends on lecturers you see, some won't mind if it's juz 1 day late, while some will even if u're 1 hour late)
And hell yeah, I do know that I'm lazy... XD
But in my opinion, why pass up a half-done, rushed job assignment that will get around 60 marks on time, when I can pass up a decently done assignment worth at least 70 marks 1 day late?

how it works in my college HELP:
late pass up penalty: 10% deducted from the actual mark given each day.
so it's like if u get 80% but pass up late by 1 day, it's 80%-8%=72%, or late by 2 days it's 80%-16% blah blah blah..
so...

the math goes like this: (assuming marks will be deducted)
pass up bad assignment on time = 60% over 100%
pass up good assignment late by 1 day = 70% - 70/100 = 63% over 100%

see? get my point?


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I admit.. that it's still an excuse for doing something bad... LOL
1 more assignment due on the 12th!!! please don't give me the chance to use this excuse again, however much sense it makes.. T_T~
somebody plz save miiii from becoming who i don't want to be~~~ lalala XD

Another 1st Time

last Friday I accidentally twisted my right ankle while playing futsal with my buddies.

it was the first time in my life that I've twisted an ankle, and god it hurt like hell =..=

well not as painful compared when I broke my leg la, but still pretty horrible >"<

went to the doctor shortly afterwards and he said that I've "popped" a vein O.O"

simply hearing that statement send the shivers down my spine =.=

....

wasn't able to walk for 2 days, today 4 days after the incident I drove to class.
still walking kinda gingerly but I can drive edy so good enough improvement la I'd guess...

me leg looks fukin cacat for the last few days =..="

well thanks to me buddy Khai and his lao po for sending me to the doc and back home right after the incident happened, no small feat considering the fact that I was unable (obviously) to drive and he had to drive and park my HUGH 4X4 that he never previously drove before, and the hardest part was of course to park it back into my tiny parking lot after getting back to my condo >"<

Ayu and Tirus get a special mention for, ahem, their so-called "sick visit", in which they came into my house for less than 5 minutes to retrieve some stuffs they forgot to bring home during the previous mahjong session, plus curi some MP3 and porn and then left... LOL
well they did wish me well so...

and not forgetting lovely ms papaya who never forgets to show her care for me whether it's, in her own words, implicitly or explicitly... XD

to Mel who had the same fate as me while falling off her bed not long ago, now I finally understand what you had to go through and it sure sucks bad...

and TQ mom/dad/sis of course... lovely+caring+annoying as always ^^

and yeah to those mahjong kakis who kept me occupied the last few days when I wasn't able to move much, TQ very much for the company, although u guys bloody won too much $$$ from me !$@#$@% =..="

to everybody else,
stay safe, stay healthy, and stay injury-free.