Anonymous II

when you hold what values most to you
keep your fingers tight
firm but gentle
protect it from harm
but give it the freedom to roam

carefully.. carefully... carefully...

eventually...

finally?

Fun Quota

Alright, now officially my Fun Quota is used up.

So it's back to the serious and sticky end of stuffs.

I've been wasting my time away on meaningless things for way too long.

I've been running away from stuffs I don't wanna face.

I've been hiding my head under the hole which kinda make me don't see things that I don't wanna see.

Well, I've been very very bad lately.

So it's about time I start to do things I'm suppose to do, Properly.

I've been ignorant, I know.

I've been missing in action, this I'm also aware.

I've neglected some stuffs and also some people, I know and I wonder why am I such a jackass.

I feel guilty, and I'm deeply sorry to those who is in concern.

So, starting from now on, I will be the better "me".

Or at least, I will try to be that better me.

Please, if you may, help me and send some love and care to me.

Ever wondered how does it feel to lose direction?

To lose the driving force of motivation?

I think I know how that feels now.

I think I'm somewhat lost.

So so so...

Let's start from doing the basic things properly first.

Let's assume that I have a Fun Quota and it is all used up, so there will no longer be any time-wasting, energy-busting, senseless activities involved anymore.

And for once seriously, do stuffs that I'm fully capable of doing really well and not like coming out with shitty end products that I'm producing of late.

Like the assignment which is due on Monday!!!

and from here on hopefully I'll start to find my way...



fuck you bryan chong you're one piece of shit. better buckle up you ass or else face the fucking consequances.
somebody fucking bitch-slap me pls.

Anonymous I

You and I both agreed that I'm the one who understands you most

I know what you have been
I know what you can be

The only thing I'm not sure of, is what have you become

it's been so long...

You said it's either all or nothing
I'm thinking, I have nothing else to lose

Dangerous.. It's you not me who is dangerous...

swt food for thought -.-

Happy Day @ 28/9

I had an unusually happy Sunday today, which doesn't happen that often to me for quite a long time going.

The day started out with me refusing to get out of bed and going along with my parents for a morning jog at 8am, which i volunteered the day before to join since it's a boring Sunday and I did not have any plans.
But me being me I ended up staying til early Sunday morning around 3.30am watching Arsenal get beaten by Hull (WoWooo go tigers go!!! gunners losers LOLX), was the 1st happy thing that happened IMO and I duly got into bed in good mood after their loss wakakaka.

Alas, people (like me) who gets into bed at 3am+ will normally not be able to wake up at 8am for exercise, and me ended up sleeping until 11am where I had Bak Kut Teh for breakfast, joining mom and dad after they finished their jog.
I like Bak Kut Teh ^^ 2nd happy thing

Went home and spent few hours on Dota until dad decided to SUDDENLY go for lunch and then to The Curve for some time-wasting. It was so SUDDEN that I had to unwillingly and SUDDENLY leave the Dota game I was playing =.=" 1st intentional leave game in GG leh Zzz...

Fortunately ran into some good luck at The Curve afterward where I grabbed 4 items in Adidas for less than RM200, and mom paid for it cuz it's my "health-enhancing-items" and in this case 2 hightech uber cool (literally) exercise T-shirts and 2 pair of exercise pants. Wohoo happy!!! XD

Then before going home I had dinner, which includes CRAB!!! Wohoo it's been so freakin long since I last ate crab!! lalalala must be one of the happiest thing that happened to me today ^^
And also broccoli and some yummy taufu and some not-so-yummy chicken which I didn't eat much, was a really satisfying and, here's that word again, happy meal. lol

crabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrab

or what's left of it... Yummy!! XP

And lastly of course includes doing a little favour for lil' ms Papaya (an all-expenses-paid purchase and delivery duty LOL)
Seeing that smile on her face would brighten any dark day of mine.
See I'm a nice guy who would gladly make people happy just for the sake of people being happy ^^P
and in return it makes me a happier man. blah blah blah...

Bryan is in good mood today.

Reasons to be Missed

I dreamed I was missing

You were so scared

But no one would listen

Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming

I woke with this fear

What will I be leaving

When I'm done here?

I'm not afraid

I've taken my beating

I've shared what I made

I'm just strong on the surface

Not all the way through

I've never been perfect

But neither have you

All I've done all these while

Is forgetting all the hurt inside

I've learned to hide so well

Pretending someone else

can come and save me from myself

So I just want you to know

When my time comes

Please forget the wrongs that I've done

And help me leave behind some

reasons to be missed

Don't resent me

and when you're feeling empty

Keep me in your memory

Please leave out all the rest

Leave out all the rest...

courtesy of Linkin Park

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If one day I'm gone , why would I be missed?

DeepShit

DeepShit I am in DeepShit OMFG!!!

Zzzz someone please pull me out of this shit hole I don't wanna suffer anymore please please please~~~~~

URGH this sucks bad sucks bloody bad CCBKNNMCH!!!!

U stupid piece of shit can you just STFU and do what's u're suppose to do and not do anything you're not suppose to do!!!

DeepShit DeepShit I hate this I Fuking hate all of these..............

I feel like hitting the wall 1000 times I feel like ramming into a tree at 320kph I feel like jumping off my 12th floor I feel like... I'm in DeepShit!!!!!

rant rant rant rant rant rant rant rant rant rant rant rant.......


Bryan is in a bad mood
i am sad

bugger

Tuesday morning.

class at 8am.

woke up at 630am. brush and clean up 7am.

left for breakfast at Jinjang around 710am.

finished breakfast at 725.

started moving from Jinjang to Bangsar for class. (will normally take around 25min to 30min)

then I stumble onto this sh*t




Jln Kuching @ 730am.

ZZZZzzzzzz......

745: still in jln kuching

800: still in jln kuching... (class started edy ok =..=")

815: reached the junction that turns into my condo area. still in jln kuching wtfffff....
junction.
straight to college.
left to home.
this moment in time then: go to class or go home???

I duly turned left back home.

would have probably reached college around 9am if I'd continue going straight then.

park the car 910.

take the bus 915.

bus reach block KDPA(where my class is held) 930.

would be 1 and a half hour late for class. and seriously kena fucked my my lecturer.

skipped another class. bugger.