B.B.B

FYP

2010-02-26T02:19:00.007+08:00

200 questionnaires.
RM200+
77 pages.
15,888 words.
5 days.

It's an achievement I'm afraid to be proud of, due to the fact I had 7 weeks to do it but nevertheless left it until the very end, until when there's finally some pressure, some sense of urgency, that I'm forced to start work on it.

And it's an achievement simply because I've completed it on time. Miraculously. From the very start I wasn't very concerned about it because all these while in my uni years I've been able to complete a 5k words assignment in 1 day, therefore I was thinking: "10k words project shouldn't take me more than 3 days!"

How very naive of me. swt

reading a sample copy trying to understand why is it like it is. WHY??? @@"

It was only until I've started working on it that I realised how different it was compared to all my previous assignments. Well to be it bluntly I used to bullshit (successfully) through my previous assignments, with few hours preparation of searching for information and reference sources, and then 1 day of bull-rushing, it'd be completed. English too geng edy u see =P

But this final year project of mine was a different kind of beast. Utterly different. I underestimated the time needed to get the questionnaires all filled up and recollected, misunderstood certain chapters hence wasted time needing to figure it out, and the most serious part was I've underestimated the time needed to analyze the data collected, which was the part that took up most of my time, 3 full days specifically, despite accounting only for 3k words of the whole assignment. I ended up with 7.5k words for this one single chapter wtf.

dining-table converted into my workstation

with snowman-milo for companion on my lonely nights

The project was due on Friday 5th of February, due time was 5pm.
I finished it on Thursday 4th of February, 6pm. Rushed to Wangsa Melawati (the place where I stayed for most of my lives). Handed it to a photocopy specialist I sourced from the internet, and the worker there said the special hard-cover-thesis-binding can be completed EARLIEST on Friday 4pm.
Which was like 1 hour before my due time. And it was the estimated EARLIEST possible time wtf. I was like, WTF???

But there were no choice because that place was the fastest I've found, hence I've just handed the original copy over, pleaded them to be swift and fast with their responsibilities wtf, and then went back home and hoped for the best. Another sleepless night on top of the many previous.

Fortunately, my prayers was answered and by 345pm the other day, the worker from the shop called telling me my 2 copies of thesis was done. Anxiously but at the same time excitedly, I hurried to the shop from my house, picked up my stuffs, rushed back to HELP within 40 minutes, reaching there around 4:45pm, and then successfully passing up my FYP on time.

Phew. A big fucking PHEW.

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my room during the last 2 days of the rushing period

I would never forget the period when I was rushing the project, that particular period when I was repeatedly analyzing 29-fucking-questions INDIVIDUALLY and coming up with elaborations for each and every fucking one of it. CRAZY I TELL YOU -_-

But what I wouldn't wanna forget most was the feeling, when the whole thing was finally completed. Finished. The End-ed.
It was indescribable, the feel of satisfaction, the sense of accomplishment, to finally complete such an difficult task, and to a further extent, to complete the last task required for my tertiary education.

The presentation that I needed to do on the following Monday was a piece of cake compared to this. And after all's done and dusted, I said to myself, "Is this all?"
A sense of disbelief overwhelmed me as I was left nothing else to do except for results waiting.

What~E~Ver~~~

There's still a long road ahead of me, and I long for new challenges like these to keep my hunger for accomplishment satisfied. Yes I'm being serious when I say I like more of these plz.

Like what Admiral Farragut used to yelled in the face of danger, "FULL SPEED AHEAD!" XD

Princess Papaya's 22

2010-02-22T13:46:00.013+08:00

Here's the b'day post I was forced to promised to write~!

Dear Janice,

I first saw you when I was 15

I became friends with you when I was 17

I fell in love with you when I was 18

Things didn't work out but we then became bestest friends for more than 5 years

Today, you finally turned an elderly old age of 22

How time flies right? =D

There was a time when I used to write love letters

used to use your nick as my password

used to bring along this lucky crystal-stone-thingy of yours wherever I went

and (still) have my only soft toy on my bed with me

Without a doubt, you will always be the one that got away.
and the fact that you're the ugly duckling *never ugly la in my eyes but juz a metaphor k =P* turned beautiful swan makes it even more sour.
*lol green envy monster inside surface its head*

But but but,
I wouldn't change it one bit.
Looking at how happy you've became over these years, how grown up and how you've matured (albeit very slowly), and how you've finally settled down love-wise, is the best answer to the dreaded "What if?" question.

So everything is ideally in place, all that's left is to do is the obligatory wishes of all the best, be healthy lose some fat dun fall sick you weakling do some exercise plz, and be happy with a smile on your chubby face always =)

Happy Birthday drunkard

the only photo u took wif me during ur bday. drunk, eyes closed, head pointing downwards, and fugly as f*ck.
-__-" u seriously dun like to take pictures wif me hor zzz

love,
B~

Twinkle Twinkle Little Stars

2010-02-14T01:22:00.004+08:00

It's Chinese New Year
The skies are filled with fireworks

It's Valentine's Day
The air is filled with love

Just like stars in the skies
Fireworks light up the horizon

Hand in hand
Lovers watched in awe

Fireworks and Love
What a marvelous combination

♥♥♥

insufficient stars, swt

Happy CNY to everyone~
and Happy Valentine's Day to anyone in love~

I♥U =)

I wasn't forgotten!

2010-01-31T14:22:00.009+08:00

Hey!

They remember me!

They who you ask?

They means the gym which I had membership with =P

But... it's been dunno how many months since I last went there for workouts. maybe half a year. or more. swt.
and last I remembered, the last visit I went there it was still called CALIFORNIA FITNESS, with the huge Jackie Chan poster outside as their ambassador in Midvalley. Remember or not?

Now it's called CELEBRITY FITNESS. swt.
I'm guessing California Fitness went bankrupt or something and Celebrity took over hmm whatever la I still got my membership although they've changed owner and management.

and it's valid through October of 2012!
which is like 3 more years to go buahaha XD I'm happy I dunno why lol

gonna pay a visit to the gym soon when I'm done busying my argh-signment <=\

Happy Birthday Mommy~

2010-01-30T00:02:00.009+08:00

It's my mommy's bday 2day~

well she's been getting really emo and grumpy of late due to stress at work, hope that she relax abit and grow up! stop acting like a child under certain situations! sometimes she makes me think that I'm way older and more matured than her due to her short temper, emo-ness, and lack of common sense SWT...

and her constant nagging!!!
and her random bear hugs @@" behtahan~

urgh, that's a bit too tight mom X(

Despite those annoying things that she does,
I still know she loves me very much.
always gets me anything I ask for since I was a little boy.
I wan to eat mentos, she bought me and let me eat until I kena asthma.
I wanted a bicycle upgrade when I was still a kid riding the three-wheelies, she went and bought me the bestest bike available.
I wan a pair of jogging shoes, she went and bought me the best and most expensive pair.
I wan phone she went and and got me one immediately.
and those bearhugs! yes they annoy me but I still like them =D I think I grew up becoming a cuddly guy is all because of my cuddly mommy lol
she not that good in showing her feelings, so she does it her own way for showing her love to me, and yes after so many years being her son I do get what she wants to express although sometimes she does it so damn weirdly swt
and ANNOYING! oh it's that word again XD

But she's turning 55 today~
can take out all her EPF to enjoy life edy lol

wish her a happy, and I really mean HAPPY days in the coming years... no more emo-ness and no more nagging me -.-
and share me some of her EPF money~ lalala XD

Happy Birthday mommy, I love you

cute mommy =D

Premature #2

2010-01-21T23:17:00.005+08:00

Well, the thing is, I've been jumping to conclusions too harshly recently.

That's why there's the need to clarify things.

Things such as why there is a need for the modification of my previous "Premature" post #1, as it no longer serve its purpose anymore, hence is inappropriate to be shown in its original version to the masses.

And things like, urm, decision should always be made under a clear mind, not when in anger or frustration, as these emo-ness often cloud logical thinking and leads to irreversible consequences.

Consequences like losing your loved one?
Over some small stuffs, some insignificant arguements?
Hrm that's some food for thought.

Girls, they're an emo bunch. Why ar? lol

Pardon me as I seem to be stereotyping people, but it annoys me to no ends when I see the fairer sex erupting over some non-substantial issues, or self-imposing curfew into a self-made cocoon while under pressure, or even choosing the easy route out of an problem by just simply giving up.

Giving up.
Hmm. I don't particularly like this attribute.
Me myself is the type where giving up is not an option, and fight-til-the-end is usual how I do stuffs. Too much testosterone I guess XD

Alright back to the topic, yes I hate people giving up, and yes, decision should be made after thorough consideration.
One is my personal preference and the other is pure common sense.

Due to both of these, my life of late has been consisting of all sorts of premature incidents.
Premature starts. Premature decisions. Premature endings. And yes, Premature blog posts that appeared way too early.

Bah!

Grow up already I say, what do you expect from a man turning 23 this coming march @@"
I'm not thinking straight anymore, time to sign off yet another emo post Wohoo~

Premature

2010-01-11T23:54:00.008+08:00

started with a spark,

fueled by foolish naivety.

over the horizon,

expectations were lurking.

just when love was going to take over,

a void appeared.

like the rabbit hole Alice fell into,

everything started to crumble.

flushed by empty promises,

our flame of lust

ended with a fizz.

AND THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN
I WOKE UP FROM THIS NIGHTMARE

WTF LOL

*wtf is wrong. this post has been published then hidden then published once again due to certain lousy reasons fml* *here we go again lol XD*

When?

2009-08-24T02:49:00.003+08:00

A knight in shining armour

without a

damsel in distress

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fairy tales aren't suppose to be like this

F*cking Hilarious

2009-06-28T03:30:00.004+08:00

This brings tears to my eyes.

Pure pwnage OMFGGGGGGGGG XD

btw R.I.P MJ.

Kitty Kat

2009-06-08T13:23:00.005+08:00

I was having my breakfast today

when I suddenly felt there's something under the table touching my leg...

down I looked, and there she was

=D cute kitty playing with my leg

cheeky kitty :p

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need to concentrate on my studies lo!!!! 2molo exam edy WTF!!! GOGOGO

Pasar pagi

2009-06-06T21:37:00.009+08:00

This morning I went to the wet market aka. pasar in Sri Rampai.
Sri Rampai is the area where I spent most of my childhood living in, and this particular pasar pagi I used to visit every sunday when I was a kid together with my mom and dad for buying groceries.

Today it so happens that grandma who stays there ordered us (LOL ordered XD) to go her place to drink some 药材汤 she prepared for us.
So we went there, had breakfast nearby grandma's house eating my favorite 猪肉丸粉.
Then after breakfast we went to the pasar, to buy some vege and some stuffs for cooking.

I think, it has been like at least 6 to 10 years since I last went to this pasar edy =\

But one visit to this place which used to be so familiar to me, and hasn't changed a bit which I realised after been there once again today, that it occurred to me that how how how I missed my childhood T.T~

And here's how it looks like

Beautiful isn't it? how there's elderly people on bicycles with baskets of groceries =)

It's just a one straight line of a street the pasar, with those trees hovering above it which I love so much~

Here's a vege seller store.
When I was a little boy, and I really mean a LITTLE 7, 8 year old boy, I used to curi those long beans they sell to use as playthings XD
You know, long beans are stacked together in one whole big bunch, and when I was a short lil boy I could barely show my head above the table they put their vege on. So I used to just pulled one long strand of the long beans when the seller isn't looking, and that single strand of long bean I would used as a "whip" or just something to spin around while I was following my parents boringly around the pasar... =D

Ah Pak who sells us fresh nice 白鲳, but he's a little discriminative cause he sells those bad, not-so-fresh stock only to the Malays, not to Chinese =\
I like him tho XD

Dad and sis walking in front of me

Dad choosing vege =D

Stuffs I don't particularly like to eat =(

Chicken Shop~
bought 4 pieces of chicken thigh+drumstick

Hoodie mom who's half vampire and would melt under direct sunlight -_-"
she really hates the sun swt

another sad looking bunch of 白鲳 laying on the ground... "plz dun eat miii... T.T" - fishies

Spices

Lastly~ The forbidden secret area of any Pasar~~~

The Pork Store XD
It is located in the back alley, where it can't be seen by people walking on the main street. People need to travel through a secret route to reach it, hence it's the most exclusive store of the whole pasar~

Dad choosing some yummy daging babi =P

I think it's ribs and.. liver.. I guess XD

He's sharpening the giant knife.. the scraping noise so nice BUAHAHAHA *crazy killer laugh XD*

Look at the uncle with the apron on, there's many of them on the street so cute =D

Walking back after finished buying all needed stuffs~
返屋企-ing...

I love this place so much~ =)

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Btw I have a new handphone, and this blog entry shows why I had craved for a phone with a good camera for a long long time...
My previous HTC was hopeless in terms of taking pics, but now I have my new phone with its capable camera, I can take down images I encounter in my everyday life without needing to worry about the pics coming out like shit ^^

That's all for today, more about my new phone on my next post~

Be Brave =)

2009-05-31T02:27:00.005+08:00

Love is a gamble
It involves great risks

But great risks brings great rewards
and love is exactly like that

You may win or you may lose
but if you don't give everything every time you love, then what is the point?

Giving everything may result in losing a lot
but if all goes well, you could have the whole world in exchange

Don't be afraid to lose
or else you may risk missing out on everything you hold dear to your heart

At the very least, that's what I believe in

like you said

Be brave =)

what I'm trying to say is, just go for it =)

WTF IS THIS

2009-05-31T00:48:00.009+08:00

Today while I was having dinner with my family, suddenly a huge bulge appeared out of nowhere on my left hand.

It was like, one minute there was nothing, then the other minute it just appeared!

The bulge is sized like a 10 sen coin, popping out like a f*cking gigantic pimple shit -_-

It doesn't hurt, is not painful, not itchy.
I can press it push it move it scratch it do all sort of things to it but it still feels the same like any other part of my hand, nothing especially painful or weird feeling about it.

But it's still there!!!
Poking out... being a standout among other parts of my hand... staring at me.. WOOT!

OMG WTF IS THIS @@"

the last pic wtf so obvious/disgusting/Zzz

Gonna see the doc if it doesn't disappear by itself in a day or two...

Feeling down cuz of this T.T
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here's a forum topic I opened to inquire about it

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latest update @4/6/09:
It's a Ganglion -__-"

"A ganglion cyst (also known as a bible bump) is a swelling that often appears on or around joints and tendons in the hand or foot. The size of the cyst can vary over time. It is most frequently located around the wrist and on the fingers. The term "Bible Bump" comes from a common urban legend that treatment by pounding on the cyst with a Bible or another large book occurred in the past."

"Ganglion cysts are idiopathic, but presumably reflect a variation in normal joint or tendon sheath function. Cysts near joints are connected to the joint and the leading theory is that a type of check valve forms that allows fluid out of the joint, but not back in. The cyst contains clear fluid similar to, but thicker than normal synovial fluid. They are most often found around the wrist joint, especially at the scapho-lunate joint, which accounts for 80% of all ganglion cysts."

- Wikipedia

It says there that it's IDIOPATHIC, meaning that its actual causes are UNKNOWN in scientific terms, which kinda sucks -_-
I was hoping for some definite answers, and this is all i got =(

Settled it myself by hitting it with a hard cover book, as one of the methods mentioned to cure the thingy was exactly that... LOL

here's the book, and the towel where I put my hand on for the "operation" XD

The bump disappeared after hitting it hard with the book~

Woot! =P

DotA Rehab

2009-05-29T18:02:00.005+08:00

It's been more than 1 month since I last played a Dota game.
I'm not playing it at home anymore so my GGclient is redundant now.
I don't feel the urge anymore
uninterested anymore

No more time wasting on these

After 6 years of indulgence in this,
I think I'm done and over my Dota-playing addiction

A change for the good obviously =D

"Tak nak! Setiap tekan membawa padah" =\

Weird day

2009-05-28T16:01:00.009+08:00

Today was/is a weird day.

Technically Today started 12am midnight so....
I was playing mahjong with my buds in my room from 12am til around 3am.
Won RM10 in the end.

Then waited for Champions League Final to start.

Watched together with dad to see how ManUtd got outclassed and beated. sad.

Reluctantly went to sleep at around 5am. Doesn't feel nice when your team lose, especially in the f*cking final wtf

Alarm rang at 630am. Continued sleeping til 715am.

Reluctantly woke up and realised I'm so gonna be late.

Washed up quickly and gone straight to uni, bypassing my usual morning 8am class breakfast place @ Jinjang cause no time for it.

Morning sun and traffic congestion. Typical 8am commute =\
nice sun tho 2day

Went to eat breakfast at Wisma UOA opposite my uni, had fried mee/beehun hybrid and 1 fried egg yummy =D

Gone into class 15 minutes late, lecturer had already given the first 3 exam tips wtf
copied from nice nerdy guy sitting behind me after class finished.

Class finished after Mr Ravi finished giving all 8 exam tips. Juz 1 hour after I entered the classroom door Zzz

Drove back home 930am morning wtf so early -__-

Went back to bed slept until 11am when mom and dad quarreling sound outside woke me up wtf

Went out walked around like a zombie asking what the f*ck for 10 minutes.

Dropped dead back onto my bed. Slept til 1pm.

Changed clothes. drove to my favorite hawker in front of Sg Mas @ Jln Ipoh for lunch.
While finishing my Pork-ball noodle, realised was gonna be late. again.

Drove speedily (lol speedily I like that) to uni again. Went in 15 minutes late again for class.
THEY WERE HAVING MOCK EXAM!!! how come no 1 inform me 1 wtf Zzz

Wrote 7 pages for 4 essay questions, all pure self-sourced intelligence aka. bullshit cuz I didn't study at all DUH
Last to pass up.

Walked to bread shop and bought a piece of kaya bun. Consumed before arriving to my car down the street.

Drove speedily home once again and here I am blogging about my weird day! XD

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Stuffs waiting to be done for the rest of the day:
- Badminton with buds @ Selayang mall 5pm, swt juz realised why so soon now 420pm edy -_-
- dinner
- ???
- Terminator Salvation @ Mid Valley 920pm YEA BABY~

Tickets bought yesterday

Bryan signing out lalala =P

Left or Right?

2009-05-25T23:41:00.005+08:00

I've just found out a weird thing.

Everyone seems to have their toolbar/gadgets/widgets or whatever you call them on the RIGHT SIDE of their blogs. =\

This was something I suddenly realized after staring at my blog for a split second today, which was weird cause it just suddenly struck me how glaringly obvious it was.

It was DIFFERENT. Something was standing out. Was special? I don't know >.<
It just suddenly hit me, like me hitting a wall.

I panicked.
I hastily opened a completely new browser window, pressed "Bookmarks", right-clicked my "blogs" folder and pressed "open all in tabs".

I screened through all THIRTY THREE (33) of them.
Mind you these are the blogs that I visit daily, and I found out there are only THREE (3) of them that have their toolbar/gadgets/wateverf*ck on the left side. Me, PY, and Carol.

The remaining 30 all have their stuffs on the right. 3 vs 30 wtf

BANG!

Smack-in-the-face type of feel =(

Maybe it was because I've been reading these blogs everyday and NOT reading/taking care of my own blog for a very long time, and it has already left the impression that blog toolbars on the right is the norm.

Not until today.
Not after I casually logged into my own blog like I do everyday, the Left and Right issue suddenly popped up.

Why on the right?
Coincidence?
Or is there a logical reasoning behind this phenomenon:
being on the right is the optimum layout?
makes it easier on the eyes?
looks more attractive to people?
provide orgasm while reading the blog?

I dunno >.<

Should I swap sides? =\
why am I even bothering -_-

and my moodget isn't working >.> fml?

=)

2009-05-08T00:45:00.009+08:00

once upon a... recent time >.<
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Watcha doing?

kekeke
i'm doing nth

swt swt swt

jus lying down

u doing ntg u dun wan to do ur hw!

:P

i got things to do eh i helping u do ur hw >:0

tired

wat is this -_-"

lazy

u ar.. spoilt edy la..

eee u so sayang me

sayang oso cannot like dis 1 ma~

y?
say u wanna spoil me forever

haha
u wan me to spoil u forever?

yup

i'll spoil you for as long as u love me lo k..?
fair deal :P

deal

T.T
now starts my horrible life full of doing stuffs for u...

hahaha

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XD

I love u so much >3<

Missing You

2009-04-13T21:28:00.002+08:00

a touch from being together
a tear for being apart
although you're not by my side
you're always in my heart

missing you.

courtesy of evo1314

No Flower >:O

2009-03-14T17:15:00.018+08:00

4 years ago today,
This rose never reached its intended destination.
Sadly,
It ended up with him instead.

4 years later this day,
No flower was given,
because his role in this has expired.
Unfortunately,
He no longer is the one who should.

never liked leaving anything half-done
neither like doing anything half-heartedly
but looks like this is something I'll have to leave it as it is
-未完成-

白色情人节快乐~
and
Happy Graduation to PrincessP ;)

Little Love Bug

2009-03-13T00:26:00.008+08:00

Aww
Such a sweet song~

makes my mood a little better every time I listen to it (^^D)

Don't Take Me for Granted

2009-03-11T01:49:00.012+08:00

Remember,

when people do you a favour no matter how big or how small
say thank you.

when you've made people sad or mad or upset
say sorry.

only when you mean it,
when you really really mean it
say I love you.

I may be a nice guy
I will talk to you politely
I will treat you nicely
I may back off to avoid confrontations
and I will definitely give help in whichever way I can
but
don't take me for granted.

Please understand that,
I'm not asking for a lot.

it's the little details that counts.
and it's those little details that makes you a better person.

" Me no likey >:( "

random rant

2009-03-06T01:56:00.005+08:00

Now I understand how on earth can I waste so much time online.

1st is so many websites nowadays load damn bloody slow.
For example, Facebook is one of the slowest loading sites I've ever used, even a simple refresh would take at least 30 bloody seconds, imagine using it whole night how much time it would take me zzz
PhotoBucket is another site that is getting overpopulated with each passing day, hence it has become one of the slower loading sites nowadays. I remembered back then when I changed over from imageshack to photobucket was because of the more user friendlyness and also the SPEEDIER upload!!! now it's like so bloody slow...
Then there is those comic sites that i do my regular comic reading, and they are also one of the slowest loading sites ever..

Time wasters these.

Then there is DotA, which is time consuming/wasting/unhealthy, hence I spend less time on it edy nowadays.
1 game of dota would last around 1 hour, and imagine playing 3 games a day, that's 3 hours from a day's 24 hours gone!!! Such a fukin waste wtf
Should bloody cut off from playing this crap at all...

Chatting online will also waste lots of time, cuz time just flies when people chat online via msn... Ever wondered why by the time you've finished a nice chat conversation with someone, it has already passed 2 hours since you both started??
I have no idea how time passes so fast while chatting wtf

Maybe I should throw away my laptop once and for all, problems solved.

Maybe not. X(

Nitez

I Will Be

2009-02-26T01:05:00.005+08:00

I Will Be

There’s nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain the tears they cry
Still you never said goodbye and now I know how far you’d go
I know I let you down but it's not like that now
This time I’ll never let you go

I will be all that you want and get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything OK

I thought that I had everything I didn’t know what life could bring
But now I see honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe 'cause you're here with me
And if I let you down I’ll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go

I will be all that you want and get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing OK

Cause with out you I can’t sleep
I’m not gonna ever ever let you leave
You’re all I got
You’re all I want
Yeah
And without you I don’t know what I’ll do
I could never ever live a day without you
Here with me do you see you're all I need

And I will be all that you want and get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life (my life) I will be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything OK

I will be (I’ll be) all that you want and get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life you know I will be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything OK

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Was in the car this evening when I heard this song over the radio, and something about it just doesn't seem right.
Found out that it was sang by Leona Lewis, which kinda fxcked up the song IMO cuz when I 1st heard this being sang by Avril, it was a fantastically lovely song!!

Later found out that the Avril version was the unreleased song that she wrote but never went into the "Girlfriend" album..
Sad thing cuz it is such a lovely song.
In the end Leona somehow got her hands on the song and was released in her album, which she bloody messed up the song wtf

Duly went home and repeated the song (the original by Avril of coz) I have in my computer for the rest of the night...

PM me if u wan dis song I'll happily share ^^

I wanna watch movies~~~

2009-02-24T00:36:00.004+08:00

Swt.

Just finished watching the Oscars, and now I so bloody wanna watch a shitload of movies.

Curious case of Benjamin Button

Slumdog Millionaire

Changelings

Frost/Nixon

Milk

The Reader

The Wrestler

Doubt

Defiance

Valkyrie

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Woot!! Need to catch Slumdog/Benjamin/Changlings/Valkyrie before they stop showing on the big screen!!!

Which is probably by next week... wtf

and... Frost/Nixon and Milk would probably not be available for showing in our lovely tanah air due to our country's "openness" on religion/history/political views..
which is so totally KNS
hope that it'll show in the cinema in due time, or I'll have to result to supporting the pirated DVD peddlers once more zzz

Movies Movies Movies~~~

I need some company~~~ and I need money wtf -_-"

Let's go watch some nice shows~~~

and pls no more chickflick/dumbass comedy/anything relating to hong kong comedy pls I dun want to fucking waste my time and money on these anymore I had enough of it for 2009 zzz

Lurking Love is waiting to be found

2009-02-15T00:33:00.014+08:00

It may be lurking around the corner,
or may be under you bed,
or inside your closet;
It may be lurking few thousand miles away from you,
or it may be just beneath your nose,
right in front of you,
behind you,
lurking...

Everybody may have that unfulfilled love, lurking somewhere waiting to be found,
it may be the girl you never had the courage to tell her that you love her,
or the guy that you've just quarreled with a few moments ago,
or the gal that you've been chasing all these while,
or the guy that you thought were just good friends but deep down inside he loves you oh so dearly.
Love is everywhere, but they are hidden, they lurk and they want to be found.

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It may sound ridiculous, but I've only been through 3 Valentine's Day together with a partner...

Twice was with my dear, the 2nd time is this very day (14/2/2009), while the other was with PrincessP.

Such a coincidence that so many years with her, we so very seldom crossed each other's life during Valentine's Day, and I wonder why... >"<

Well this year it's different and I'm indeed celebrating my Valentine with my love, although in an unorthodox way in the sense that we're thousands of miles apart.
Still, it feels different compared with while being single, and in a better way too ^^

Juz wanna wish everyone a happy Valentine's Day~~~
and I love you dear... ^^

Turning Point vs Point of No Return

2009-01-15T01:11:00.005+08:00

I hate you. I love you.

I'm glad that you had to go. I'm sad that you must leave.

I hope you never come back. I wish you never have to go.

Please leave me alone. Please don't leave me.

It's good that you won't be around. I'm scared that I won't see you again.

Life without you would be so much better. I cannot possibly live without you

I can start a new life. I wanna die.

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Of every statement, one side of it is true while the other is not.

Right now, I cannot differentiate which is which.

How I wish all of the red is true, but it's the white that is hard to let go.

This, could be my Turning Point.

Or it could be my Point of No Return.

emo-ed

1st post of 2009

2009-01-11T01:11:00.006+08:00

Been busy lately.

Been doing lots of stuffs lately.

Been going places lately.

Been hurting myself lately.

Been playing lots of Dota lately.

Been exercising less lately.

Been playing less mahjong lately.

Been confused/uncertain/complicated lately.

Been naughty lately.

Been happy lately.

Festive seasons... Christmas, New Year and now the oncoming CNY..
I kinda like it and hate it at the same time, because it brings stuffs for me to do like going out having fun, but sometimes when life gets too busy you'll end up wanting to stay at home and relax, away from all the hectic chaos...

well that's the problem of being a slight sadist, wanting everything of both sides when actually everything of both can't really fit into my itsy bitsy life..
itsy bitsy in the sense of being confined by financial constraints and limited by my physical conditions.
Oh and not forgetting emotional frailty.

Time passes by so fast when everything goes according to plan, not that I have a plan but I do have a hectic life involving plans made by others and people to catch up with, hence it has been quite awhile where my life (not including the rest time that I need to fix my health) is filled with doing all sorts of things...
Bumped into lots of friends that I haven't seen for a long long time, in b'day parties, countdown gathers, even on shopping outings ^^
And I've seen almost every available movie on show this festive period, and it's been a long time since I last gone on a movie spree watching on average 2~3 movie per week for 3 consecutive weeks..

so yeah times flies and sometimes I wondered what have I done so far, what hasn't been done, and what should I do next?
I hope after this hectic period I can settle down abit and get to grips on some issues going on in my life. Find some answers. Apologize to some people. Pursue some goals. And find some solutions.

Been at home for the last 3 days due to being slightly immobilized no thanks my injured toe...

toe in its sorry state =..=

Has been quite a good start to the year apart from this, am actually looking forward to the rest of 2009 XD

cheers~

"Sick" Zombie Slayer

2008-12-14T00:45:00.006+08:00

Call of Duty: World at War - NAZI ZOMBIE GAMEPLAY - Awesome video clips here

this is Call of Duty - Nazi Zombie.
a mini game from the WWII first person shooter, where a group of 4 people can play together and defend against invading Nazi zombies into their shelter.

well, 2day I spent 3 hours playing this game in a cyber cafe with my buddies, and it was fun actually, extremely exhilarating especially when we get to the later stages when the zombies come in big fuggin waves, they get stronger and faster, and we were like screaming "get the fxxk away from me ccb niasing XXXXXXXXXXX WAAAAAAAAAAAAA" *dead*

yeah, when u hear these cursing it normally ends up in someone dying in the game.
fuggin fantastic XD

u guys should try it when u have the chance, one of the most exciting FPS in recent times.

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On a more serious note, I almost vomited after the gaming session ended.
I have this problem where after playing First Person Shooter (FPS) games I will end up freaking nauseated.
like fuggin wanting to puke.
especially FPS with dark surroundings, small/covered environment, and fast actions aka flinging the mouse everywhere to shoot the fuggin buggers.
and Nazi zombie is exactly those of what I mentioned, but multiplied by at least 2.

so apart from dying in game, I felt like half dead when I finished playing it.

no more zombie slaying for me in the foreseeable future, it's a health hazard for me 凸 =..="

When? Why? How? I Don't know~~~

2008-12-08T21:40:00.009+08:00

噢~~~

又平平淡淡地过了今年的7/12了~~~

好~~~无~~~聊~~~

7/12又是什么日子呢???

应该..只有几个人知道这一天对我有什么意义吧...

不知道的那些人呢? 想知道吗???

噢~~~~

都~~~过~~~了~~~

算~~~了~~~罢~~~~~

呜呜呜~~~

LOLX~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

btw，最近好多人庆祝anniversary喔...

有的去烛光晚餐

有的打算去马六甲玩

有的结果因为经济不景气而上了云顶

有的比较有米的又跑到了金马伦玩

感觉好幸福喔~~~

我也想过纪念日~~~

买多多的花，巧克力送她，带她到处逛游~~

拖着她的小手~~ 给她温柔的亲吻拥抱~~~

好想要有二人世界的幸福感觉哦~~~

呜~~~~

LOLX x 100~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

21岁了，其实身边多了很多感情方面稳定下来了的情侣...
一起共度了一周年，两周年，甚至更多的都会有..
当然也有那些结了婚的另当别论啦，搞大人家或什么的都不是普通人想要发生的 @@"
但其实发现现在身边的朋友要就是已多年老夫老妻的情侣，要不然就是死命单身的那些可怜家伙，而我就很可惜的被入围后面的那可怜组 T_T~

说要找女朋友，就不知道为什么酱难...

从哪开始找起?

从现有的朋友圈?

从不认识的人那儿开始找起?

从前任女友那儿找回以前的感觉?

现有的朋友圈里，若要找个伴侣，意思就是会少一个朋友。
这方面的起点就是要确认哪些朋友有机率或比较有可能性成为伴侣。
若表白不成功，通常就等于会少个朋友了...
成功的话就有女友了，但若过后进展受挫而分开的话，往往也就酱不只没了情人，也浪费了之前向本为朋友的她表白所冒的险，一样地失去了个很要好的朋友...

若说要从不认识的人哪找女友，别说要认识女友啦，就连要认识新朋友都难... ="=
我现在的环境和现况，说实在不利于认识新朋友呢...

前任女友?
这其实就是最容易的方式了。
最熟悉的感觉往往就是最舒服的了，所以ex的appeal就在于它的熟悉感...
分了酱多年还可以谈天时还很自然地dear来darling去..
说的话题不论从八卦到时事到性爱到空谈都可以讲得自由的感觉..
清楚她喜欢些什么，讨厌些什么..
知道她喜欢你的什么，讨厌你的什么..
而自己也清楚喜欢她的什么，不喜欢她的什么...
对于她的了解，就会变成想回追她的推动力。

但这所有所有的了解之中，往往最明刻骨铭心最记得的最清楚的，
就是当时是为了些什么而分开...
而这记忆，就会成了想回追念头的最大阻碍。

噢~~~~~

懊恼~~~~~

wow，好像做assignment酱写了个分析自己"找女友"的analysis...
tmd i need to get a break from my assignments X.X

虽然...我单身了几久一下，但也其实谈过很多年的恋爱啦...
多多少少都至少有7，8年了吧..
在这么多年里对象不多，只围绕在2，3人之间...
奇怪的是...我还没正式度过过哪个周年呢!!!
not even an 1 year anniversary!!!
要怪就怪我所有过的爱情都挨不过一年吧...

失~~~~~~~败~~~~~~~~

伤~~~~~~~心~~~~~~~~

哇哇哇~~~

stupid post XD... happy public holidays everyone~~~

Anonymous IV

2008-12-02T00:48:00.004+08:00

Things hasn't change a bit.

not a bit at all.

Then why am I yearning for the past?

Why am I so afraid to commit to the future?

Why am I scared to make the next move?

The move that I'm not even sure which would lead me to something good?

Confused, but at the same time excited.

This is certainly a first.

Nightmare

2008-11-17T23:14:00.003+08:00

Finally,

My nightmare of a semester has ended.

today I've just finished my last final exam subject, and will gladly put this horrible semester of mine behind me.

I have no idea how

I could have screwed this semester up

I think this is probably the worst semester I've had in the three years of my time in HELP

probably due to the fact that somehow

I wasn't in the mood to study at all.

That after so long til the sem has started, passed by, and finished in front of me but me still having the holiday hangover from my PREVIOUS sem break.

why?

why.

I felt that I had no motivation whatsoever

which is something that has been getting on me for the pass few semester

motivation is decreasing at a steady rate with each passing semester

hence is that's probably why my grades are at a similar downward slope?

dunno.

no motivation

due to what?

due to having no target to achieve

due to being single and having no moral support

due to being sick

due to having too many excuses?

maybe a bit of everything.

I cannot deny the fact that the things I've mentioned is indeed having a negative effect in my life

I want to change those situations

But change takes time

and time is not on my side.

On Saturday my aunt chatted with my mom, suggesting that I should travel to UK next year when my degree finishes to get my masters. My cousin bro is going during that time so they agree it would be a great time to tag along.

In my mind,

I don't mind going, if it does not burden my family financially, and I would certainly like the exposure.

But,

I held my stand that if my sickness haven't healed, I will not be going, or else I know I'll suffer.

Time is running out.

Time is running out.

Time is running out.

...

Nightmare of a semester has ended

I do not have high hopes for my grades this sem

A pass for every sub would be good enough

If not then I wouldn't complain as I know I deserved it.

Bad bad nightmare...

Hope I wake up to a better dawn.

Anonymous III

2008-11-04T22:13:00.010+08:00

"I would rather pass up late a fully completed/100% satisfied assignment, than to pass up on time a half-heartedly done/rush job assignment,"
quote Bryan Chong.

That, my friend, is the excuse I give to myself when I pass up my assignment late, and it does make sense, doesn't it?

well lately I've passed up 3 assignments 1 day late, the most recent one being today.
I know it's bad, and I know the consequences of maybe deducted marks. (this depends on lecturers you see, some won't mind if it's juz 1 day late, while some will even if u're 1 hour late)
And hell yeah, I do know that I'm lazy... XD
But in my opinion, why pass up a half-done, rushed job assignment that will get around 60 marks on time, when I can pass up a decently done assignment worth at least 70 marks 1 day late?

how it works in my college HELP:
late pass up penalty: 10% deducted from the actual mark given each day.
so it's like if u get 80% but pass up late by 1 day, it's 80%-8%=72%, or late by 2 days it's 80%-16% blah blah blah..
so...

the math goes like this: (assuming marks will be deducted)
pass up bad assignment on time = 60% over 100%
pass up good assignment late by 1 day = 70% - 70/100 = 63% over 100%

see? get my point?

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I admit.. that it's still an excuse for doing something bad... LOL
1 more assignment due on the 12th!!! please don't give me the chance to use this excuse again, however much sense it makes.. T_T~
somebody plz save miiii from becoming who i don't want to be~~~ lalala XD

Another 1st Time

2008-10-28T23:04:00.008+08:00

last Friday I accidentally twisted my right ankle while playing futsal with my buddies.

it was the first time in my life that I've twisted an ankle, and god it hurt like hell =..=

well not as painful compared when I broke my leg la, but still pretty horrible >"<

went to the doctor shortly afterwards and he said that I've "popped" a vein O.O"

simply hearing that statement send the shivers down my spine =.=

....

wasn't able to walk for 2 days, today 4 days after the incident I drove to class.
still walking kinda gingerly but I can drive edy so good enough improvement la I'd guess...

me leg looks fukin cacat for the last few days =..="

well thanks to me buddy Khai and his lao po for sending me to the doc and back home right after the incident happened, no small feat considering the fact that I was unable (obviously) to drive and he had to drive and park my HUGH 4X4 that he never previously drove before, and the hardest part was of course to park it back into my tiny parking lot after getting back to my condo >"<

Ayu and Tirus get a special mention for, ahem, their so-called "sick visit", in which they came into my house for less than 5 minutes to retrieve some stuffs they forgot to bring home during the previous mahjong session, plus curi some MP3 and porn and then left... LOL
well they did wish me well so...

and not forgetting lovely ms papaya who never forgets to show her care for me whether it's, in her own words, implicitly or explicitly... XD

to Mel who had the same fate as me while falling off her bed not long ago, now I finally understand what you had to go through and it sure sucks bad...

and TQ mom/dad/sis of course... lovely+caring+annoying as always ^^

and yeah to those mahjong kakis who kept me occupied the last few days when I wasn't able to move much, TQ very much for the company, although u guys bloody won too much $$$ from me !$@#$@% =..="

to everybody else,
stay safe, stay healthy, and stay injury-free.

Anonymous II

2008-10-15T00:13:00.005+08:00

when you hold what values most to you
keep your fingers tight
firm but gentle
protect it from harm
but give it the freedom to roam

carefully.. carefully... carefully...

eventually...

finally?

Fun Quota

2008-10-11T20:15:00.007+08:00

Alright, now officially my Fun Quota is used up.

So it's back to the serious and sticky end of stuffs.

I've been wasting my time away on meaningless things for way too long.

I've been running away from stuffs I don't wanna face.

I've been hiding my head under the hole which kinda make me don't see things that I don't wanna see.

Well, I've been very very bad lately.

So it's about time I start to do things I'm suppose to do, Properly.

I've been ignorant, I know.

I've been missing in action, this I'm also aware.

I've neglected some stuffs and also some people, I know and I wonder why am I such a jackass.

I feel guilty, and I'm deeply sorry to those who is in concern.

So, starting from now on, I will be the better "me".

Or at least, I will try to be that better me.

Please, if you may, help me and send some love and care to me.

Ever wondered how does it feel to lose direction?

To lose the driving force of motivation?

I think I know how that feels now.

I think I'm somewhat lost.

So so so...

Let's start from doing the basic things properly first.

Let's assume that I have a Fun Quota and it is all used up, so there will no longer be any time-wasting, energy-busting, senseless activities involved anymore.

And for once seriously, do stuffs that I'm fully capable of doing really well and not like coming out with shitty end products that I'm producing of late.

Like the assignment which is due on Monday!!!

and from here on hopefully I'll start to find my way...

fuck you bryan chong you're one piece of shit. better buckle up you ass or else face the fucking consequances.
somebody fucking bitch-slap me pls.

Anonymous I

2008-10-06T13:02:00.003+08:00

You and I both agreed that I'm the one who understands you most

I know what you have been
I know what you can be

The only thing I'm not sure of, is what have you become

it's been so long...

You said it's either all or nothing
I'm thinking, I have nothing else to lose

Dangerous.. It's you not me who is dangerous...

swt food for thought -.-

Happy Day @ 28/9

2008-09-28T23:12:00.005+08:00

I had an unusually happy Sunday today, which doesn't happen that often to me for quite a long time going.

The day started out with me refusing to get out of bed and going along with my parents for a morning jog at 8am, which i volunteered the day before to join since it's a boring Sunday and I did not have any plans.
But me being me I ended up staying til early Sunday morning around 3.30am watching Arsenal get beaten by Hull (WoWooo go tigers go!!! gunners losers LOLX), was the 1st happy thing that happened IMO and I duly got into bed in good mood after their loss wakakaka.

Alas, people (like me) who gets into bed at 3am+ will normally not be able to wake up at 8am for exercise, and me ended up sleeping until 11am where I had Bak Kut Teh for breakfast, joining mom and dad after they finished their jog.
I like Bak Kut Teh ^^ 2nd happy thing

Went home and spent few hours on Dota until dad decided to SUDDENLY go for lunch and then to The Curve for some time-wasting. It was so SUDDEN that I had to unwillingly and SUDDENLY leave the Dota game I was playing =.=" 1st intentional leave game in GG leh Zzz...

Fortunately ran into some good luck at The Curve afterward where I grabbed 4 items in Adidas for less than RM200, and mom paid for it cuz it's my "health-enhancing-items" and in this case 2 hightech uber cool (literally) exercise T-shirts and 2 pair of exercise pants. Wohoo happy!!! XD

Then before going home I had dinner, which includes CRAB!!! Wohoo it's been so freakin long since I last ate crab!! lalalala must be one of the happiest thing that happened to me today ^^
And also broccoli and some yummy taufu and some not-so-yummy chicken which I didn't eat much, was a really satisfying and, here's that word again, happy meal. lol

crabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrabcrab

or what's left of it... Yummy!! XP

And lastly of course includes doing a little favour for lil' ms Papaya (an all-expenses-paid purchase and delivery duty LOL)
Seeing that smile on her face would brighten any dark day of mine.
See I'm a nice guy who would gladly make people happy just for the sake of people being happy ^^P
and in return it makes me a happier man. blah blah blah...

Bryan is in good mood today.

Reasons to be Missed

2008-09-24T20:03:00.004+08:00

I dreamed I was missing

You were so scared

But no one would listen

Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming

I woke with this fear

What will I be leaving

When I'm done here?

I'm not afraid

I've taken my beating

I've shared what I made

I'm just strong on the surface

Not all the way through

I've never been perfect

But neither have you

All I've done all these while

Is forgetting all the hurt inside

I've learned to hide so well

Pretending someone else

can come and save me from myself

So I just want you to know

When my time comes

Please forget the wrongs that I've done

And help me leave behind some

reasons to be missed

Don't resent me

and when you're feeling empty

Keep me in your memory

Please leave out all the rest

Leave out all the rest...

courtesy of Linkin Park

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If one day I'm gone , why would I be missed?

DeepShit

2008-09-18T01:37:00.009+08:00

DeepShit I am in DeepShit OMFG!!!

Zzzz someone please pull me out of this shit hole I don't wanna suffer anymore please please please~~~~~

URGH this sucks bad sucks bloody bad CCBKNNMCH!!!!

U stupid piece of shit can you just STFU and do what's u're suppose to do and not do anything you're not suppose to do!!!

DeepShit DeepShit I hate this I Fuking hate all of these..............

I feel like hitting the wall 1000 times I feel like ramming into a tree at 320kph I feel like jumping off my 12th floor I feel like... I'm in DeepShit!!!!!

rant rant rant rant rant rant rant rant rant rant rant rant.......

Bryan is in a bad mood
i am sad

bugger

2008-09-05T00:04:00.004+08:00

Tuesday morning.

class at 8am.

woke up at 630am. brush and clean up 7am.

left for breakfast at Jinjang around 710am.

finished breakfast at 725.

started moving from Jinjang to Bangsar for class. (will normally take around 25min to 30min)

then I stumble onto this sh*t

Jln Kuching @ 730am.

ZZZZzzzzzz......

745: still in jln kuching

800: still in jln kuching... (class started edy ok =..=")

815: reached the junction that turns into my condo area. still in jln kuching wtfffff....
junction.
straight to college.
left to home.
this moment in time then: go to class or go home???

I duly turned left back home.

would have probably reached college around 9am if I'd continue going straight then.

park the car 910.

take the bus 915.

bus reach block KDPA(where my class is held) 930.

would be 1 and a half hour late for class. and seriously kena fucked my my lecturer.

skipped another class. bugger.

Go home little whale.. Go back to your mommy...

2008-08-23T17:02:00.004+08:00

"In the end, there was little that could be done for Colin, the baby humpback whale whose slow and sad decline ended with a lethal injection today. For nearly a week, efforts to save the abandoned calf had transfixed Australians, been discussed on internet chat rooms and made headlines around the world.

But Colin, first sighted on Sunday trying to suckle from a yacht moored in Pittwater, north of Sydney, had little hope of surviving without its mother, and attempts failed to lure the mammal out to sea in the hope that it would be adopted by a passing pod of humpbacks.

Wildlife experts and even a whale whisperer had been brought in to try to save the 14ft animal, which was serenaded with songs, stroked by vets and gently encouraged to make its way back to the ocean. There had been talk of force-feeding it with baby formula through a tube, but the calf was clearly dying and euthanasia seemed the only option.

Even that idea was bound to cause controversy in this nation of whale-lovers, whose campaigning over the past 30 years has helped to save the humpback from extinction. Outraged animal rights activists tried to win a stay of execution. They organised a legal injunction against the National Parks and Wildlife Service to prevent Colin being put down, but they were unable to serve it in time.

After a search the night before proved fruitless, soon after daybreak, the whale was spotted and veterinary officers moved in to sedate it. For a few minutes it thrashed around as marine workers coaxed the struggling Colin to shore, hoisted the two-ton whale on to a tarpaulin and pulled it into a tent.

A few onlookers cried, “Shame! Shame!” One likened it to the Japanese slaughter of whales in the Southern Ocean. Alexander Littingham, who watched the spectacle, branded the scene as “absolutely disgusting”. He added: “They have towed him behind the boat, scenes reminiscent of what we’ve seen the Japanese fishing trawlers do.” Cherie Curchod, who lives nearby, claimed the calf continued to thrash around after being given six injections. “It was so upsetting because euthanasia is meant to be an easy death and that whale did not have an easy death at all,” she said.

But John Dengate, of the National Parks and Wildlife Service, said: “That was the best way it could have been done; you put the animal out of its misery.” The calf had suffered shark-inflicted injuries and was having problems breathing. “The last thing we want is that the whale should suffer,” he added.

An autopsy will be performed on the carcass at Sydney’s Taronga Zoo to establish what was wrong. One assumption has already been proved mistaken. On close inspection, Colin turned out to be a female, so was promptly rechristened Colette."

Colin/Colette, trying to suckle from a yacht.. poor thing...

The other day I was still reading about how the officials there wanted to help the lil' lost fella in finding its mother, or otherwise its surrogate mother, how they lured Colette out to the open sea in hope that it will join the other whale herds...

Then yesterday news came about that Colette again returned to the port, lost and frustrated...

Today, it was decided to be put down due to it being injured by shark bites and starving..

In the matter of 3 days I've witnessed the demise of a 2 week old baby, how sad...

let's mourn...

PS: I've always have a soft spot for animals... >"<

生病了...

2008-08-21T23:54:00.003+08:00

七月节，真的出事了...

来了个大感冒...
首先开始有喉咙痛...
过后变成严重伤风.. 左鼻孔塞住/右鼻孔死命流鼻水... 水水状的鼻水.. >"<
过后差点发烧..

现在好多了，但还是证明了我在这段时期会有的衰运...
希望明年今日不会重复这样衰啦..

唉...........

Finally!!!

2008-08-16T19:27:00.003+08:00

Outta the way olympics, the B.P.L is finally back!!!

After 2 long months of non-footballing weekends, here it comes again~~~

Hurray~~~~

lol bloody pissing myself with excitement XD

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Go Go Go Manchester United~~~

Go on and win the quadruple!!! or at least the treble this time around ^^

07/08 Premier League Champions

we love u Sir Alex

Break the mold and retain the Champions League title~~~

Kings of Europe. This was really long overdue

@ Moscow. That was fun, let's do it again this year XD

GLORY GLORY MAN UNITED~~~

14/7

2008-08-14T23:42:00.008+08:00

七月十四

快要过十二点了

我的灾难期快要过了

已经很多年的七月十四遇到许许多多不好的经验

其中比较严重的有撞破头，撞车，生病，不见贵重东西...

....

今天一早刚起身想下楼下吃早餐

突然接到姐姐从公司打来的电话

"在哪里?"

"在家里咯..." blurz =..=

"今天别出门啊，是七月十四正日。"

"喔.."

"你知道你的啦，七月十四很容易中事的。要出门的话下午出下还可以，晚上最好躲在家里.. 最好整天躲在家里啦。"

"家塌下来呢..?"

"那个..机率比较底吧..." giggle.. XD

"喔..."

"你..等一下..." 传电话给在旁的爸爸...

"喂..?" blurz...

"喂，在做什么?" 老豆说话 o.O" huh

"要吃早餐咯，虾米事?"

"带着你的'皮袖'啊.."

"哈..?" wtf is a 皮袖 -.- blurzzz..

"买给你的那个貔貅啊!!!"

"哦... okok.." Ooo... is that magical good luck heavenly lion thingy i got in china..

"好啦.."

"喔..." still blur..

*卡嚓*

....

乖乖的躲在家里一整天了..

Ouch...

A new day, a new begining.
God bless me >"<

Simplicity

2008-08-03T23:42:00.007+08:00

My mom ran into my room and told me this story out of total randomness yesterday night when I was casually sitting here surfing the web...

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When the US astronaut first went to to outer space, they had problems jotting notes down because their pens were not working under zero gravity conditions.
The ink just won't come out because there were no gravity.

After 20 years of research and millions invested into this particular problem, astronauts finally found a solution.

But it wasn't the US astronaut who had found the solution tho.
It was the Russians aka Soviet Union cosmonauts, who went to space years after the US astronaut did.

How did they managed to overcome this problem that the US had and couldn't fix for such long time with such a big fund?

well...
They Russians just happened to have brought along their pencil...

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The moral of the story is,

Sometimes it's not worth looking too far forward or too deep inside, either for solutions or signs..
You may end up complicating stuffs and blurring your perception of what you 1st had in mind.

Sometimes, the solution may just lie in the simplest of things...

I truly believe that it's the simple stuffs that are most beautiful.

My lil' new phone hang-thingy.. Got it from a 扭扭蛋 contraption in Cineleisure 2day..
"In doing anything, aim for the world record!!!"... I suppose that's wat it's telling me XD

cute lil' fella ^^

七月节

2008-08-02T23:40:00.005+08:00

又来到农历七月了。

七月节，鬼门开...
对我来说都不是间好事 >"<

不是说我有第三眼，容易见鬼或什么无聊的...
只是一直以来七月节间我都会很衰的啦 -________-"

撞车.. 撞破头... 生病...

唉，要乖乖的过这一个月了...
也好啦，刚开学就应该需要多点纪律多一点点自爱了...
而这七月节的因数就刚刚好可以成为我变乖的理由了 ^^

要...
早睡早起...
早餐吃饱饱...
午餐晚餐吃好好..
准时上课..
不要skip课...
驾车驾慢慢..
割车割快快...
电脑打少点..
午觉睡多点...
运动多做点..
钱再用少点...

好，安排好这鬼节期间要做的东西了!!!
这月任何东西/事件/人物要来挑战我的，放马过来吧~~~

God Bless me...

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Test #2: 撞鬼指数

Here's a lil' test my good friend Mr Fei linked me to play...
Have a try and see how big of a possibility you're gonna run into a ghost this Hungry Ghost Festival XD

Mine is
你的撞鬼指數：10%

你與鬼絕緣！想撞鬼？沒門！你聞鬼喪膽？恭喜你！你膽小怕事的個性已發揮到了極致，屬於鬼見鬼厭的類型。即使鬼門關大開之時，成千上萬的孤魂野鬼都向外湧，見人就想與之交朋友，可是遇見你就覺倒胃口，想方設法遠遠地躲著你，繞道而行。

... LOLX
10%, true also I don't really believe in ghost or any of these superstitious anyway...
But what's also true is I tend to be quite unlucky during this period..

Again.. God Bless me pls...

Reflecting Back on a Holiday

2008-07-29T00:04:00.005+08:00

Sem Break just finished. New long sem just started.

Time to do some looking back on what I've planned to do, what I've done, and what I didn't do.

Stuffs planned and done:
1. A reasonable amount of exercise to aid my recovery of my sickness.
- Yep did that. Although didn't visit my gym for as much as I would have liked, I still managed to play futsal once a week and badminton twice a week. And some jogging in the weekends...

2. Get reasonable amount of rest.
- Yes that too I did. Slept alot. Slept alot more earlier too. 1st good effort in changing my lifestyle.

3. Eat as much healthy food as possible.
- Did that too... Nothing spicy nothing fried nothing sour for the whole of holiday... Save for 1 piece of Margaritta pizza at Vivo XD 2nd decent effort in lifestyle changing.

4. Play less Dota.
- Yes surprisingly I managed to do this, went to CC only 3 times in a month's time. New personal record.

5. Saving more money by going out less. Less going out less driving less spending u see.
- Yep done that, RM200 worth of petrol lasted me more than a month, another new record... Didn't buy any clothing whatsoever in the MegaSale period too. Trying very hard not to X.X

6. Meet new friends/contact old friends.
Something I done in my holiday that I'm actually proud of. Some of the highlights were meeting Liwen aka sei fei po after she came back from US, meeting SPY in her yoga studio opening ceremony, getting to know new friends though existing friends (a few..), all of which i'm really happy of doing.

err... that's about all.. stuffs I've planned and done.

Stuffs planned and not done:
1. Go on a vacation elsewhere other than KL.
- Nope. Was stuck in KL soil for the whole of my sem break. Friends were either busy or too poor to go on a vacation. Family was working. How sad.. T_T~

2. Skating (@Sunway...)
- Nope. Wanted to but somehow didn't managed to.

3. Wall Climbing (@1U)
- Same reason as above.

4. Camping (@FIRM)
- A plan made up by one of my friends but in the end the plan starter canceled the plan. damn.

5. Play more MahJong as a holiday pass time.
- Did play abit, but just a lil' bit... Tak cukup la hands still itchy!!!

6. Play more Dota.
- err something I didn't do, was good in the sense it's bad for health, was weird on the other hand cuz it was a bloody holiday...

7. Work/earn $$$.
- Wasn't able to cuz of my current health issues...

8. Sing more K.
- Juz sang ONCE for the whole bloody month -__- I used to sing K at least twice a week while I was having class... Yet in a last sem break how I managed to just sing K once is beyond me >"<

9. Finish my 三国 BB Gundam series models.
- Unfortunately, ran out of painting materials...

10. Find a girlfriend.
- Err... obviously a mission unaccomplished =..=

I guess that's about it.
Conclusion is, the pass 1 month was the longest semester break I've ever had in my 3 years in HELP, but it was also the most boring sem break I've ever had.
It's kinda sad looking back on my holiday...

But the past has passed me so let's just move on, time to start a new page in my life, and a new semester in my academic life...
Hopefully the future will be better.. Hopefully...

Test #1

2008-07-26T23:34:00.002+08:00

挑戰型（權威自信，敢作敢為）

您經常是精力充沛、情感強烈、專橫霸道、叛逆、保護者、獨斷獨行、一不作二不休的人。您工作賣力，玩樂也賣力。
您擁有一定的個人倫理，涵蓋了整合、真理和正義，透過這個個人倫理，您以正反對立的角度觀看世界。
您雖然重視公平，卻不太樂意聽到其他人的觀點。

優點：
您對朋友和所愛的人會極端保護和支持，您會因為他們受到不公平對待，不夠強壯到足以為自己爭鬥的人而努力抗爭。

缺點：
不尊重他人的權利和需求，為了自己而脅迫他人。

愛情：
您深刻重視感情，但由於您獨斷獨行，而且有對控制的需要，可能會出現建立關係的困難。
在親密關係中，爭吵對您來說是主要的，這是安全保持連繫的一種刺激方式。

您是能鼓舞對方，有趣的伴侶，而且會永不厭倦地保護對方，支持伴侶自我實現。
「我知道她的聰明、能幹，而且我愛這樣，但是踏入這個充滿危險威脅的世界，她跟著我走是重要的，這樣我才知道她是安全的。這看起來像是控制，然而卻是對她的保護。」

安定方位：付出型
在安定的狀態下您會變得順從、願意付出、容易受人影響，讚成和自己有關的事物。

壓力方位：思考型
當面對感情的壓力或情緒對抗時，您會變得沮喪、怠惰、不溝通，而且無法決定自己在思考的事情，並加以實行。

建意：
學習接受沉悶和恐懼
認知並歡迎您的脆弱及無力
改善自己責備他人的傾向

最渴望：控制掌握一切，當家作主
最恐懼：屈服於人
最難達到的美德：純真 (Innocence)
最難克服的執念：縱慾 (Lust)

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The test's slightly true and slightly not true...
How does it reflect on me? ngam tak ngam?!?

hmm...

newayz here's the link if u wanna have a try

Cry

2008-07-25T01:19:00.009+08:00

想哭
陈奕迅

相约在一个适合聊天的下午
分开很多年满以为没有包袱
我还打算回顾我们为何结束
还想问你是不是一个人住

当你的笑容给我礼貌的招呼
当我想诉说这些年来的感触
你却点了满桌我最爱的食物
介绍我看一本天文学的书

我想哭不敢哭
难道这种相处
不像我们梦寐以求的幸福
走下去这一步
是宽容还是痛苦

我想哭怎么哭
完成爱情旅途
谈天说地是最理想的出路
谈音乐谈时事不说爱
若无其事原来是最狠的报复

当我想坦白我们的乐多于苦
你说水星它没有卫星好孤独
我才明白时间较分手还残酷
老朋友了再没资格不满足

我想哭不敢哭
难道这种相处
不像我们梦寐以求的幸福
走下去这一步
是宽容还是痛苦

我想哭怎么哭
完成爱情旅途
谈天说地是最理想的出路
谈音乐谈时事不说爱
若无其事原来是最狠的报复

若无其事原来是最狠的报复...

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很喜欢的一首歌，陈奕迅的"想哭"。
又是林夕的作品，我想怎么会写得这么好，深受感触..

其实很多时候，心情就会很像这首歌酱...
对于某些人，就是会带有这样的感觉..

很多人都说，"时间能冲淡一切"。
但对于一些不想被冲淡的，难道时间就是好东西吗?
有些人会有愿望，对于某事或某人会有期待，甚至会有寄托。
但时间却把这一切，一一地冲淡...
因时间的缘故而导致没有下落的梦想，应该怎样处理呢..?

矛盾是
想说的话不能说出来
想做的事因身份而不恰当
想的人却没有想你
最了解你的人不爱你

无奈是
凡事只能以微笑带过
脸上挂着的永远是个面具
口是心非已成了个习惯
敷衍衬托已练到最高境界
而最后唯一的选择
很明显的是逃避

每次听这首歌
都会很心酸
都会很想哭

我讨厌若无其事
因为它是最狠的报复

*This song has so little options from YouTube... This is best that i can find but the ending chorus doesn't sound right. Other clips the song and the wording speed doesn't match, so in the end i picked this clip which the words match the song but has a little defect in the last chorus... >"<*

Joker

2008-07-20T22:08:00.009+08:00

I like the Joker. I really do.

IMO he is an absolute genius, albeit a psychopathic genius.
He is extremely intelligent, he plans two steps ahead of everyone, and does everything in a very unorthodox way. Hence the Joker is bloody hard to predict, making him the equivalent of a baddie Einstein. (go watch the Dark Knight then you'll know what i mean)

He is insane, and that's what makes him so powerful.
With his insane mind, I do not think he is afraid of anything, even death.
This guy bloody laughs in the face of death, as if he is happy of dying or something***. Freak.
To him, Batman is not something he feared, but something he enjoys playing with.
He said to Batman himself in the ending minutes of the movie,
"You (batman) won't kill me because of some personal reason of yours, maybe the feeling of righteousness; and I (joker) won't kill you because you're JUST SO MUCH FUN!!!"
Crazy son of a bitch =..="

He is a criminal, a bad guy without a motive.
Unlike many other bad guys, he doesn't do what he does for money***, or for revenge, or for any reason at all.
Because he is fukin' crazy, he doesn't need justifications to do what he does.
All he has in mind is to create chaos, destruction, and death, while at the same time having fun..
He blow stuffs up, kills people, and make normal citizens turn their backs up against each other just because he want to prove that deep down inside, everyone is just the same as him, and while doing this he just enjoys the process.

I respect him because in truth he is just a normal person.
Without any special abilities or special gadgets, the Joker would and could still stand up against the almighty Batman equipped with his ninja kungfu moves, and his arsenal of weapons and stuffs that the Joker would never get.
And despite these disadvantage, the Joker appeared to have bettered Batman basically in every aspect***.
Only with his brain, the Joker triumphs over Batman's brawn, weaponry, and his absurd batpod/bat-tank-car-lookalike.

He gets stuffs done without even look like trying, he gets beated up but doesn't seem flustered, he does stuffs, really bad stuffs just for the sake of doing it, and he often gets what he wants.
As a conclusion, I think he is the perfect villain.
For bad guys, he is the perfect role model.
Hence that's why I really like the Joker. Yeah I'm considered as a rebellious baddie sometimes XD

R.I.P Heath.
you've done a great job in portraying the Joker.

"Why.. so.. serious..?"

***Please do watch the movie in order to fully understand and feel what i mean in these sentences

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I've just came back from The Curve, watched The Dark Knight together with my mom cuz she was bugging that she wanted to watch it so badly -___-"
After watching it, I have nothing but compliments for this movie.
Just like a newspaper review I read today, it certainly can be nominated as few of the selected "Movie of the Year". It's really that good IMO ^^

Go watch it ASAP!!! It's a Kick-Ass movie!!!!

Proud

2008-07-19T22:24:00.009+08:00

I am proud of myself.

Today, I did something that I would never imagine me doing for a long long time, and that is to sew a button.

It's actually a front button of one of my favorite shirt, which came off dunno when.
So I'd just removed a button from one of the four pockets and stitched it onto the place, just a small lil' achievement that doesn't seem like something worth boosting about.

But that's not the case, because in doing this I've found out that those stitching classes i had in all those "household learning" (what are those classes called edy ar in Malay, I can't seem to remember after all these years - pendidikan jasmani?!? eh that's PE cls rite..) I had while in secondary school form 1/2/3, those knowledge I once deemed USELESS had actually been useful in this particular.

Hence that is why I am proud of myself.
Not because of succeeding in fixing a missing button;
But because I still remembered how to do my stitching.

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btw let me introduce you to Jungle Green (J.G).

J.G is what we Cadetians used to call it, because it is green in colour, and basically it's a jungle combat outfit.
It was once one of my uniform in my cadet haydays.

It's a proud thing for a cadet to receive his first J.G, it's such a big occasion that it's actually worth celebrating for.
You won't naturally get a J.G.
You need to EARN it. Through tests, exams and promotions, you will need to get to a certain "grade" to earn your J.G.
I got mine while i was in Form 3, the 3rd year I joined the cadet police force.

My J.G has been with me for almost 7 years now, and it has been through thick and thin with me.

I've jumped off a 5 floor building while wearing it.
Ran 20KMs while wearing it.
Swimed through rivers and mud while wearing it.
Climbed a mountain while wearing it.
Got lost in a jungle while wearing it.
Shot a M16 rifle while wearing it.
Slept in it. (after 7 years, it would be very weird if i hadn't slept in it ^^")
Performed in a live drama while wearing it. (acting as a "special armed forces" obviously XD)
Electricuted countless ladies while wearing it. (HaHaHa very funny but it's true XP)
Learned many things as a junor cadet while wearing it.
Taught and tortured fellow juniors as a senior cadet while wearing it.
Taught my last proper class as a cadet officer while wearing it.

In a summary, I've sweat , bleed, laughed and cried in my J.G.

After all these years, I still have the honour to fix your button.
J.G, I'm really proud of you, and I think you would be proud of me too.

*Now my J.G is just for casual wear, I still would wear it out for lectures, for shopping and stuffs...*

Movie's Night Out @ 16/7

2008-07-17T01:44:00.008+08:00

Just came home after finished watching HellBoy II @ Kepong TGV.

The only thing I could say about it is GO WATCH IT!!!
It's nice, action packed, with a decent storyline(most of the movies nowadays don't have one -__-), and also has supa hot Selma Blair in it!! >:P~

Another thing that surprised me is that someone i didn't expect to show up in the movie appeared, and it's one of my all time favorite actress - Calista Flockhart
Swttttttt didn't recognize her at first because it's been so long since she last showed up in a movie and the fact that she's dressed/makeup-ed as an Elf makes it even harder.
But at 1st she seemed familiar... Then my sis told me that it's really her after the show, I was like... OMG O.O"

It's a nice show go watch it if u can ^^

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Rant #2 (#1 was about Shitmax=Streamyx)
Kepong Jusco parking system sucks!!!
I finished my movie at around 1230am, my car was parked at the cinema floor, but they bloody locked both the exits of the cinema.
I went 1 floor down through the escalator and then back 1 floor up through the car ramp. WTF
Then they have like 4 floors of parking space, but only one floor has the autopay machine. cb
On that single floor, there are only 2 autopay machines, and on this particular day, one of them went out of order, hence only ONE AUTOPAY MACHINE IN THE WHOLE FUKIN BUILDING WAS WORKING.
Lined up for HALF AN FUKIN HOUR TO PAY THE PARKING TICKET.
RUBBISH. UTTER RUBBISH. Couldn't put it any better =..="

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It's late, niteZzz...

U Suck!!! (refering to some local broadband service provider..)

2008-07-15T21:16:00.009+08:00

.....

Bloody hell.. Been trying to online for the whole fukin' day and now after finally can online, the internet is so god damm slow!!!!

fed up fed up fed up fed up fed up fed up dhaduilasi;ncjscknsainadalkmdacj mtherfker ccb zzzz

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It wasn't always like this tho, I used to enjoy smooth, uninterrupted broadband..
Playing hours and hours of DoTa without ever needing to worry about sudden putus line or stuffs like dat...

Now.. nvrmind putus line, even getting started is also a problem...
i so bloody hate this..

Argh~~~~~~~~~~~~

Rumor has it that TM has been adding more and more customers without regards to its technical capability, meaning that although TM/Streamyx doesn't have the technical support and capability (like insufficient servers, ports and the sorts) to further extend its network, it still continuously welcome new customers just for the sake of PROFIT... Axxhxlxs...
Hence that is why broadband which should be bloody fast is so slow now, and why I'm facing these issues... Zzz....

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Btw.. On a more serious note, anyone using Streamyx experiencing anything similar to what I'm having?
Like hard to go online (although ADSL light on modem isn't blinking), or really slow connection, or suddenly line interruption after not very long usage of the broadband... anyone?????

Or is it just me having these "special" services... 凸(-___..____-||||)凸

Debut

2008-07-14T16:54:00.010+08:00

Wasted hours today trying to fix the outlook of this blog. -__-"
Was previously using a preset template but in the end decided it wasn't "personal" enough, hence the extra effort made into making the title...

Imagine how long it took for this...

to become this...

then into this...

and then this...

and finally into this...

Well, honestly it wasn't really that long but anyways it was fun doing some drawing once again ^^P

After some tweaking of the colours and fonts, it's now safe to say that the look of my Blogspot is completed, yet something still doesn't look exactly right about it, but I don't know what =.=|||

What's wrong with it?!? Why am I having this weird feeling about it!??

Zzz....

*btw it's my blog's proper debut u see so sokong a bit la pls*

introduction

2008-07-14T00:52:00.002+08:00

Hey there everyone, it's me and yeah this is my new but also not-so-new blog.

It's new because I haven't started any post yet and this is my 1st blog entry here.

On the other hand it's not so new because i actually created this blog few months back, it's just that I didn't touch it for a few months since then.

I won't be totally abandoning my old friendster blog tho, there are still important stuffs and memories instilled there and if u and I are not that close then I suggest u to pay a visit to my old blog and take a trip down Bryan's memory lane... click here
I will still be updating my friendster blog.. albeit with posts that are of different substance than those that can be found here in the future...

Bryan's Blogger's Blog will be my place where I'll put up random thoughts, random updates of interesting/weird/scary/disgusting daily happenings, random rants and sorts.
Here will practically be filled with shorter and simpler post as oppose to those "essays" (that's how my friends put it) of my friendster blog...

So basically here's where I'll bullshit...
Feel free to crap here (but please do crap with some relevance to what I've posted tq ^^")